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Problematic...Maybe not...

2011-12-05T22:18:00.001+08:00

Problem, a word we use so often to describe the situations which we have to confront.

We then rack our brains while looking for a solution to resolve the issue.

There's a possibility to succeed, or to fail (and perhaps succeed ultimately), and different people need different amounts of time to address the problem...

This process repeats itself in a continuous cycle in life, and now it sets me thinking: Is it necessary for me to go through it every single time?

The point I'm trying to make is that while some instances seem to be a 'problem', in actual fact it's often just a simple issue if we try to change the way we think or look at it from another point of view.

We might just have taken it on the surface level. Yes, the alarm is ringing, but it could always be a false alarm.

At one point I really thought that life is full of problems. Before one gets resolved another, or even a few others together, appear simultaneously.

However, I need not choose to walk on the path with the problems. It is not running away from them, but so that I can have a clearer view of the important 'problems' in my life.

Think, and think hard.

Time to Think, by *Justin-ps, deviantart

Ann-yeong-ha-se-yo!

2011-11-19T16:09:00.001+08:00

For the previous week I was watching a variety show like catching up with a drama...kudos to Running Man!

(Allow me to digress a bit..)The sight of certain people just makes my blood boil...it's as if my blood contains certain chemicals that over-react when I detect these people in my vision...I'm pretty sure I'm not childish or whatsoever, because given the past me I will just flare up directly at the person given the opportunity...and now I can bring (external) self to a calm state even if an eruption is imminent within. I just dislike hypocrites, as well as spoiled people. Give me both and my blood just explodes lol.

Well, this is life. We learn to deal with problems (including problematic people), and the only take-away is growth and development as a person, be it positive and negative. On hindsight, the past year was a problematic and a challenging one. While I almost crumbled in the process of confronting the various situations in life, I'm glad that they proved to be stepping stones and not tough walls to keep me bounded.

I just keep walking, together with time. I don't know how many mountains I have passed, neither do I know how many more there are in store for me. The only thing that I'm confident of is that I just have to keep going, because giving up and stopping at the peak of a mountain will not change anything. I know, that the view up the next one will be more magnificent.

Foot Of The Mountain by ~lady~amarillis, deviantart

一切結束之時

2011-10-16T21:50:00.001+08:00

這次我想為一個比較莫名其妙的名詞寫一篇文章, 那就是"死亡"兩個字.

其實也不能算是莫名其妙, 因為我最近聽到了個壞消息. 我的一位親人在不早前患上癌症, 病情逐漸惡化, 也許生命就快到最後的時期...

這種消息, 任誰聽了都會感到難過...但人的生命是那麼的脆弱. 雖不想屈服於病魔之下, 卻又無能為力. 身為家人的我們, 好像唯一能做的就是給予鼓勵和支持...

我記得以前有位香港藝人在節目上說過, 如果自己能陪著親人度過他生命中的最後一分鐘, 我們應該做的不是哭, 而是笑著感謝他, 感謝他的存在讓我們的生活這麼幸福.

每個人都想知道自己是被需要的. 這是種意義, 也是種動力.

倘若我能選擇要怎麼去結束生命, 我知道我一定會選安樂死. 無病, 無痛, 也沒有無謂的掙扎, 難道還有比這個更好的方式嗎?

真的, 說的總比做的來得容易. 我所說的,我不清楚以後是否能做到...

Wither by ~silent~scream~throe, deviantart

The End Draws Near...

2011-10-14T23:35:00.002+08:00

Haven't realised that it has been almost a month since I last posted here.

At this rate of passing of time, it will be very soon when this year concludes itself. Honestly speaking, I'm looking forward to a better year...

Recently I'm starting to have this feeling that I'm rather bounded (by...what else?). That's what caused some of my sudden interests to perish, after careful long-term evaluation of their possibilities.

However I did make some decisions, which involved this, albeit low, level of risk. I guess I need to pray that luck is the thing that will carry me through these periods of time.

It really seems like I'm in another phase before I am conscious of this change. The weight on my shoulders is increasing, and sometimes it becomes too heavy for me to handle, perhaps that's just an excuse, haha

Nevertheless, having some short-term goals as well as certain perks spaced out over a duration ameliorates this kind of dullness.

It has been 11 years already...

2011-09-17T22:47:00.002+08:00

Met up with my primary school mates for lunch, followed by what they call an "eat-shuang" chocolate-fondue tasting. Great people, great food (somehow the two are related, in one way or another...)

I didn't really count how long ago we met one another, but a casual remark of "...11 years" kinda surprised me. I don't feel that kind of (social) awkwardness talking to them, even after such a long period of time.

Perhaps our friendship resembles a bottle of antique wine.

The longer it is kept, the more aromatic it gets, and it only gets more rich...

那些上學的日子...

2011-09-12T21:39:00.002+08:00

兩年前, 有個男孩天天清早五點就起床, 比我們的"太陽公公"早了整整一個鍾頭. 這個時候天還是黑的,為這個男孩上學的路途添上一種寂寞.

可是如果在巴士站看到雙層巴士來接他上學, 男孩會莫名地開心起來. 經過多年, 他已經把巴士上層階梯後的第四排靠窗的座位當成是自己第二張床, 有時候可以霸佔全部空間; 有時候卻要跟陌生人分享那狹小的空間.

男孩不怕睡著時用自己的頭把窗敲的鏗鏗作響, 而是擔心別人看到自己流口水的樣子...

回到學校, 他會在漆黑的環境中讓感覺把他帶到屬於自己的班位, 途中經過食堂還會買茶葉蛋當早餐. (而這顆無辜的蛋難免會被'壞心人士'捏碎...)

男孩通常都是頭幾個報到的人, 因此在十分安靜的位子上他會趴著繼續睡, 直到破曉時的第一道陽光叫他起床. 他精神抖擻的時候也會跟早到的同學談天說地, 但絕大多數的時間都是聊八卦...

Sunrise by SamuelVincent - www.deviantart.com

Mid Autumn Festival '11

2011-09-11T19:44:00.004+08:00

This is the second MAF I've gone to. I skipped the one last year, probably because I didn't see the point of going back to school for a 'reunion' event when I've not even graduated. Before the commencement of the event, a senior actually expressed his worry about whether his class will actually come back every year. He said that he did not manage to catch anyone from the preceding class, and was uncertain how long this 'culture of reunion' would last. I think many of us would feel the same.

It's a different story now. Everyone leads his own life, so I guess it makes more sense to meet one another and find out how everyone is doing, just like a mini Chinese New Year, set aside especially for classmates.

My day started with volleyball matches early in the morning. Had quite a bit of fun playing this sport which I'd probably never touch without the introduction from my classmates, but the sad thing is that the team couldn't thrive in such a competitive environment, haha.

Had a few games of basketball among ourselves then went on to challenge our senior class...bathe, chillax, followed by a late lunch at coro (where we had quite an unpleasant encounter), and then a while of gaming at the usual place.

Chatting, singing songs which were awakened from remote places in our memory, trying to catch up with the moves of the mass dances...the night was simple, yet enjoyable.

This is not really relevant to MAF, but this kind of community spirit really 'lights up' people's lives:

We Meet Again

2011-09-04T22:35:00.000+08:00

I don't know whether this is my second time saying this, but it really feels good to meet my friends from time to time. A year ago, we were classmates, now, maybe we should be known as "comrades"...

It's actually a pity and an interesting gathering, coz it wasn't really a class event since only the guys were there, but the setting was right, including the people, for a typical "men's talk" (which revolved around the opposite gender), haha

Just like we tend to adhere to traditions over festivals or special occasions, we strictly followed our tradition to battle each other out on the computer yet again, lol!

Well, nevertheless I'm still looking forward to this coming Saturday's arrival. It'll be a great workout session in the morning and a gathering in the evening where I'll get to see everyone again.Cheers!

那首歌...

2011-08-15T23:19:00.009+08:00

我不會否認一首歌對我的影響...因為真的很奇妙, 我人生的每個階段都總會有那麼一首歌陪著我度過.

自己愛上一首歌, 可能是一種偶遇, 也可能是一種命中注定...

我發現原來每一首歌都像是一個有靈魂的朋友, 他在不同的季節, 不同的場合, 帶給我不同的心情和感受. 或許就如同剛結交一個新朋友一樣, 我會注重這個"朋友" 的旋律—— 他給我的第一印象...然後才會更進一步去了解他的內涵, 以及他想抒發的情感.

最近無意中找到了這首歌, 是他勾起了我學生時期的回憶...這些慢慢被時間沖淡的記憶...

那段時期最令人難忘的, 除了在班上調皮搗蛋的行徑, 在老師背後的小動作, 以及時不時讓全班大笑的笑話外, 我相信會讓人在學校流連忘返的原因不外乎自己想見的那個他...

讓我好期待這部電影...可是這裡好像遲三個月才上...可惡 =x

Gaming Training

2011-08-14T10:42:00.002+08:00

It has been a longtime since i went to a lan shop alr...

And this time I travelled from the west to town area for a training session with my colleagues. Haha.

Yup this is for a competition, which I never thought there would be anything like this inter-branch lan game competition thingy.

So yea, they chose l4d2 and I'm clueless about it haha...way to go.

It wasn't that bad since I have to give credit for the fact that I got to relieve my stress clearing anything in my path and around me, but most of the time I don't feel like I'm in the game haha.

Nevertheless, it was a great bonding session, and I also had the privilege to learn from the pros, instead of exploring the seemingly-easy-yet-many-theories-involved game all by myself...

我在這個世界扮演的角色重要嗎?

2011-07-24T16:08:00.002+08:00

其實最近想起一位我還滿欣賞的女藝人所說的:"我以前覺得我自己根這個世界沒有連結, 好像自己死了也不會怎樣..."

說真的, 以前的我也感同身受. 除了家人以外, 我真的覺得如果我消失了, 應該沒有人會惦記著我. 我不清楚朋友會不會, 但至少我是這麼想的. 幸好現在長大之後這種消極的思想也隨著消逝...
原來'連結'這個東西, 不是靠我身邊的人建構的, 而是由我主動自己伸出手, 與他人結識, 互動. 當然, 還要持續保持聯繫, 這樣那道友誼的橋樑才不會因為長久"失修"而坍塌. 倘若自己沒在一段關係裏(友情, 愛情等等)付出過, 也沒道理要求對方一味不斷地付出, 因為這樣單方面的努力是毫無意義的.

我想很多東西真的不應該想那麼多, 自己也沒必要懷疑其他人有沒有把你視為一個對他來說重要的人, 只要自己是真心的把那個人當朋友, 自己開心就好了啊. 很多人常說快樂是金錢買不到的, 沒錯, 我十分認同. 只不過我覺得快樂跟金錢其實有個共同之處:它們都是用努力賺來的. 所以朋友跟金錢在生命中的地位應該是平起平坐的.

也許, '人際關係'才是最令人自豪的一門生意吧.

Hot weather, Warm me

2011-07-23T19:25:00.002+08:00

Not good, not good...yesterday was quite an awful day coz I had alot of work to do in the office, plus overnight duty, despite the fact that I was slightly feverish.

Well I thought the 2-days MC was just sufficient for me to get back to normal, argh. It's just bad to be the only guy left in the office.

One thing that actually brightened up these few days was a birthday gift from my Taiwanese buddy. Thanks 俊穎! Didn't think he would send me a Grand Piano! (Yup, it's really a grand piano, but one made from tiny-sized cuboids called nanoblock, haha)

I really hope things will get settled soon, so that the things which I want to do asap will not be postponed continuously (I will reveal those 'things' here when the time's right!)

Let's hope the coming week will be a better week :D

Birthday week!

2011-07-17T19:01:00.003+08:00

Hmm actually i have gotten some feedback from some of you that you have read my blog recently...so I shall appreciate that and do my part and update such that you're kept entertained? Haha.

Actually nothing much happened on my birth-day, I was still an underling working in the office, but whatever the case it's the first time that I wasn't celebrating it as a student...

It's not so much different celebrating it with an identity that is non-student, since I am quite used to 'celebrating' it by having it ordinary, but yea I do get a treat from my mum haha. Nevertheless, I am still grateful for all the birthday wishes on facebook =) Happy weeks ahead for you guys!

Oh but my point is that I have had the chance to dine together with my sec 4 friends yesterday and got a treat from one of them (yes it's you jereld). It's quite a rare opportunity to have a meal together with them I would say, and I really think it's nice to catch-up once in a while with these old buddies of mine. I had a really sumptuous buffet that kept my stomach occupied for very long haha...

Recently I have to admit that I have the urge to get my hands on some new games thanks to the game gurus in my office who always provide me with updates for the myriad of gaming platforms lol..But well, it's not that hard to resist the temptation considering the seemingly insignificant amount of allowance which I'm getting XD

P.S. New habit at night: Catching 家好月圓 every night whenever possible =x

Alright next update coming up in approximately 7 days!

"Whut oO?"

2011-06-27T16:29:00.002+08:00

Yes that is my response whenever I see or hear things that I regard as random, and a bit lame.

I remember there was once when I was dining in this Japanese restaurant, a total of 3 or 4 "office boys and girls" sat at the table next to mine when I was about to leave.

(I may have twisted or exaggerated some parts of the incident, but the gist is there...)
Boy A:"Oh they serve 豚(tun3)肉 here..."
Boy B:" What's that?"
Boy A:" Dolphin meat."
Me:"...(in my mind)Nice one."

Yup that's how it went. He said it quite loudly(although he might have meant it as a joke), so there was a point in time which I felt like laughing.

Anyway, for those of you who are regular customers of Jap food should know what 豚肉 is. Maybe to "impress" your friends you still can choose to be like "Boy A" haha.

P.S. Another thing that interests me is the "Translate" function of utube, try using it to translate the titles of videos which are of a foreign language, e.g. chinese

錢, 真的這麼重要嗎?

2011-06-25T14:41:00.002+08:00

不知道我有沒有在這裡提起過, 沒錢的感覺真的還蠻可怕的.
像在剛拿到成績不久後, 父母突然說可能不夠錢幫我繳大學學費...我也忘了實際情況是怎樣, 但雖然之後他們補上一句"會盡力"這類的話, 那一點安慰根本抵銷不了那種莫名的失落感...

當下我真的被負面的情緒吞噬, 開始不由自主的擔心了起來...
"成績算什麼", "我應該半工半讀嗎?", "這世界真的很不公平"諸如此類的想法不斷的湧現...我甚至還賭氣地對他們說既然是這麼的辛苦, 我不想唸什麼大學了...

畢竟我不是一個心理素質強的人, 我也相信這世界的確甚麼事都有可能會發生, 特別是不幸的事.
過了好一段時間我才慢慢開始想通...我告訴自己唯一的辦法就是靠自己, 因為根本沒有人會可憐我, 把自己困在那個黑暗的世界裡也不能改變些甚麼...

之後發生的事其實不是甚麼重點(我只能說我沒有後悔去嘗試), 而且我也知道有些人會很不滿的說自己也曾遇到不比我慘的經歷, 但我也無能為力, 與其抱怨不如想辦法解決問題.

之前在書上有讀到說人格會因自身的經歷而改變, 我現在完全認同. 有時候覺得自己有點吝嗇, 很想作些改變, 但現在覺得這樣的行為模式也不是偶然的. 怎麼說呢, 其實隨著我長大, 家里的情況好像越來越艱鉅, 每年的"財經預算"總是赤字...所以其實我幾乎沒甚麼零用錢, 但這也不算什麼大不了的事, 反正就是已經習慣過著"樸素"的日子...別人豐衣足食那是他家的事.

雖然我這麼說, 但我仍然滿羨幕那些不用擔心錢不夠用的人...起碼少了一份煩惱吧. 也許因為這樣可能我改天會嚮往過一過有錢人的日子吧 XD

喔...再寫下去可能就會變的長篇大論, 模糊了焦點...
就當我是為了訴苦吧, 反正今天的心情也不怎麼好.
可能有些人會問:"為甚麼你會用繁體字來寫這篇東西, 我又讀不懂..."
其實首要的理由是我其實不太喜歡看簡體, 其次是針對這篇文而言, 我覺得別人看不懂也許是好事吧, 起碼不會讓我鉤起你腦海裏不愉快的往事, 也不會讓太多人知道我的心事...改天也不太想讓別人在我面前問起這件事...

我發現我在心情低落的時候, 就是喜歡這樣宣洩.
也許我很快就能把這些集合起來出一本跟心事和想法有關的小說吧...(身為作家的感覺應該還不錯)

Confinement?

2011-06-23T15:47:00.008+08:00

Nope it's not anything about ns. I doubt I'll get confined anyway? (I really observe the rules of the 'game' haha)

Been rotting at home for more than 1.5 weeks already. No exercises, workout, plus abstinence from certain food etc.

Just got my stitches removed, the wound's quite gross? haha.

I listened to the advice of the nurse who asked me to go down 2 hours before the stipulated appointment time to do a bloodtest and x-ray that day...and I regretted reporting early coz I only managed to get my stitches out (it was the main objective) at 7? Yup fortunately I was smart enough to bring along a book to burn time lol

I think the day still ended well with the decent food in clementi plus a cup of koi. Oh and the doctor just kindly extended my mc by another week coz of the wound...

Somehow life's getting boring...no gathering nor meetups whatsoever, and there's nothing much to look forward to...perhaps just my upcoming birthday? (actually I'm not a person who really 'celebrates' my birthday, but I guess it's just an occasion to look forward to...?)

Yup that's all for now, fullstop.

原来簡單的一架鋼琴和吉他, 就足以襯托一把好聲音。

A Terrible Nightmare

2011-06-12T22:36:00.004+08:00

Went for an operation to correct the defects in my right lung. Just got discharged from hospital this afternoon, and all I can say is "元氣大傷"...

Now I have realised that being conscious may not be something good after all, because you'll experience all the pain and the kinds of side effects from dizziness to the 'throwing-up' feeling.

Though it has been roughly 6 days, I only have vivid memories of the past 2 days...I swear I don't know how I actually passed, more like survived the first 3 days.

For people who have not gone for an op before, you have a choice not to read the following content, because I dunno if I will actually cause trauma lol

Let me just make it short and start from the point of waiting at the bay of the operation theatre, where patients like me lie on their mobile beds and wait for their turns to get sent into the operation theatre. Well, it was not that scary, but I was pretty nervous as I was unsure what is going to happen and stuff like that.

Everything was alright except lying there and let the anesthetist poking my veins and artery? It really hurts and I couldn't see what she was injecting into me without specs =x

Then I was covered by some mask and the doctor just asked me to take deep breaths despite the weird-smelling gas? And Poof! I was knocked out within 10 secs -.-

By the time I woke up in the ICU I swear my whole mind was like 'wtf'. By the time I regained some degree of control and consciousness of my body and my mind, I was shivering like mad...trying to breathe despite the pain in my chest, feeling so weak that I couldn't even move my limbs.

I couldn't say a word. I was trying real hard. It hurts so much just to say a word. It was so difficult to manage the breathing between saying a word and taking in oxygen normally. After that I think I gave up and let my unconscious self took over. And losing consciousness at the point in time was really one of the best solutions.

I don't really remember when I woke up again. Thanks to all the pain killers and morphine I was able to at least sustain that few moments of awareness. It was also due to the side effects of the painkillers that I was drowsy and fell asleep again after that (omg they were my life savers -.-). And so for the next 2 days it was pretty much waking up, eat and do whatever, take pain killers, sleep, wake up and vomit coz of the side effects, and then the cycle repeats itself for umpteen times...

I think I'm going to stop at this stage or else it'll end up as a ranting post. This was the worst part of the nightmare, and until now although I know that I have gone through it, there isn't much memories bout it. Perhaps that's a good thing afterall.

Thanks for all the visiting, they really brightened up my days.

Shall update soon, and the next post shall not be so gloomy...(btw I think I will be able to update quite often because I'm currently on a 3-weeks MC)

That's It

2011-05-29T19:32:00.003+08:00

Finally. Ended my 2-month struggle and brain-racking in making a decision.

Accepted the ntu offer, sorry sutd.

Nevertheless, I'm glad that I have made up my mind at last. This 3-way split road has been appearing in my mind every now and then, even when I was watching the DanceNight concert put up by my juniors just now.

Speaking of the performances just now, it was definitely worth the travelling to be part of the audience of the show. The environment and the accompanying atmosphere really brought back precious memories. Somehow it felt that it happened so long ago, even though only a year has passed. It's good to see the familiar faces and their usual self, despite the fact that we have become more mature, in one way or another.

I think I'll need these 2 years to settle down and think. Finding my personal goals in life and the sources of motivation will certainly be part of it.

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(Image from deviantart)
Yes. I would love to explore the different parts of the world, May I?

A Cup of Coffee

2011-05-26T22:11:00.002+08:00

突發奇想..

求學的過程彷彿像在泡一杯咖啡,
雖然一開始有上千種咖啡豆,
每顆咖啡豆都經過大同小異的烘焙, 研磨。
有了一個好的底,
咖啡師就會迎合客人的要求,
在底子上加上牛奶, 巧克力等等,
泡製出一杯屬於個人的咖啡...

就如上述的過程一般,
我們就是那些來自不同背景的咖啡豆,
從小就不斷受到考驗, 經過烘焙, 經過研磨。
打好了一個基礎後,
我們就會做出抉擇, 選出屬於自己的專修科目,
最後終於煉成一杯咖啡...

每杯咖啡的特質都存在著差異,
濃度, 酸度, 香氣, 醇度...
甚至是價錢, 受人喜歡的程度等等...
即使如此, 一杯好的咖啡,
最重要的莫過於它的底, 它的根基。

你說, 我對咖啡和學業的見解合理嗎?

Is Having More Options a Better Option?

2011-05-15T17:12:00.003+08:00

Haha 3-day work week for the win =)

Thanks to the off-in-lieu, and I took a day's leave to attend the gep interview at nus...Sorry it wasn't as pleasant an experience as I expected it would be, and I shall not elaborate further here (can ask me on msn)

I'm starting to love the environment I'm working in now...
Although I may get quite busy at times (even though it's just the second week) and there's pressure from the superiors, I think this will prepare me for the future? And yea...friendly and helpful colleagues are the best...

Went for the rep interview at ntu yesterday, and it was definitely better. A great conclusion before I settle down and finalise my choice.
Haha and I realised that it was harder to find my way in ntu than in nus =x So I was held up and was thus late...

Met wangchi and went to school to watch the dancenight rehearsal.
It was great to see everyone again...The school, the audi, the backstage and rua...It was like film strips started to rewind and played once again in my mind, forming vivid images...

Indeed, many things can happen and change in half a year, some things are pleasant and encouraging while others are not...(I think I still have 4 X half a year to spend before uni? lol...)
Hmm...this week will be another 4-day work week =D

Cute...from deviantart

Friends for a month

2011-04-30T23:08:00.002+08:00

Going to a new camp that is quite near my house from next week onwards...hoping that it will be a good place in terms of learning opportunities, working environment and colleagues =)

Well...no matter how draggy the past month was, it was great to have spent it with the new friends there

Planning to take up part-time studies, but apparently I have some things to settle before anything bad were to happen (touchwood.)

Life is getting monotonous and very routine-based...aww

1 year and 11 more mths to go? -.- It's kinda stupid and pointless to think of it that way...haha

Army 'daze'

2011-04-22T11:09:00.002+08:00

From this point on, I think I've nothing much to talk about since it can be an offence blogging about ns.

Nevertheless, I'm still trying to make some important decisions of life, particularly which school to enlist in.

For now it's just between nus and sutd, which offered me a scholarship.

Somehow I think one of them is safer yet I think I will do more rote-learning there, while the other, like some of my friends have said, is interesting to me but kinda "risky".

Well...life is more than just making decisions sometimes, it's about making the RIGHT decision.

*Headache* lol. Hope everyone gets to study whichever course he/she wants =)

A New Chapter

2011-04-04T20:50:00.004+08:00

Enlisting tomorrow...but not really looking forward to it or feeling nervous...coz i'm termporarily a Pes E -.-

Neverthless, the good thing is that I can book out every evening =)

Spent most of today (somehow the 'last' day of freedom) packing my room...haha i just love the magnetic whiteboard of my new workdesk

Did some sketching also...amateur piece of work lol...I will try harder haha

(Click to view full-size)

P.S. As to why I chose to draw 'her', it is the expression in her eyes that made me do it, feel free to give me comments haha

最近...怪怪的。

2011-04-03T14:32:00.004+08:00

天氣怪怪的, 身體狀況怪怪的, 就連做的夢也怪怪的...(還是繁體字比較好看 :))

不知道怎麼的, 這個夢就是特別清楚, 也許是因為它比較詭異吧...

夢境裏, 我被帶到一個看起來再也普通不過的公司
公司的門面十分光亮, 但走進去才發現裏頭灰沉沉的, 像個監獄一般
我被帶到一個房間的門前, 有個人拿了把鑰匙出來把門打開...
我連一聲都沒吭, 毫不猶豫的讓我的腳把我給拖了進去
裡面就像一個普通的房間一樣, 設備齊全, 但卻死氣沉沉, 整個房間都是灰色的
令我感到奇怪的是, 當我發現那個人要把門關上的時候, 我非常不安的回過頭, 彷彿好想知道有甚麼不好的事情將要發生...
雖然只是一個夢, 但當下的感覺很真實, 那種無助的感覺湧上了心頭
那個人一句話也沒說就把門鎖上...那個可以看到外面的鐵門竟然也隨著消失了
原來我不是進了一所監獄, 而是一個可以突然從現實世界中消失的空間
而且不單只是房間消失, 所有人與我有關的記憶也會全部被抹去...
在夢裏的我只感到十分恐懼, 有一種好像我會被困在那裡很久的感覺
那時我好像不斷在思索到底我為甚麼會被關在那裡...
就當我快要被黑暗吞噬之際, 我好像看到一道曙光, 這時我也從夢境中回到現實的生活
哈哈, 這個沒頭沒尾的故事還真莫名其妙

P.S. 糟了, 我的心好像被俘擄了, "我沒有想過笑的力量那麼大"....

Sicko?

2011-03-29T21:10:00.003+08:00

Haha I'm not saying that I'm a pervert...but the fact that I fall sick easily -.-

On-and-off flu. I really hate to take the flu medicine which makes me so drowsy that I have to spend half the day resting on my bed.

Oh well...hope it goes off tonight and disappear.

Psychometric test at LTA tomorrow, hmm.....I wonder what questions there are haha

Meeting my colleagues tomorrow for dinner! Time for a formal farewell...

I'm using my new worktable =) (seems like my room is running out of space already, lol)

Ciao~(wow over 100 readers for my blog oO...thanks for dropping by! Leave a tag if you'd like to ;) )

A Wrong Choice?

2011-03-26T10:47:00.002+08:00

Suddenly I started to think that I've committed a mistake right from the start, by making too many choices...

The consequence is that I didn't research about the career prospect about the organisation or stat board before applying for their scholarship. So somehow I felt quite sian at the interview becoz my brain has been thinking whether this is what I really want in the future...

Let this be a lesson then.

I think I'm getting more and more lazy already haha...maybe it's time to train up XD

A Beginning or an End?

2011-03-20T12:47:00.002+08:00

Ended my job contract on Thursday...now I need to try getting used to being free

I didn't really liked to squeeze with the others on the mrt, but I guess that applies to almost everyone with a job?

For the last 3 days of it I was working with some liaison officers whose job was to look after delegates from other countries...and I have to handle complains and stuff? Yea it's quite an experience =)

Now I'm busy with applications (I haven't submitted application to uni..and actually I'm kinda scared that I wont get the choices I want -.-)...Tiring

I remember 1 week ago, I was looking up some info on Google. Then I saw this unsual "Tsunami Warning" below the search box...and somehow the others in the office saw it on their com too, almost everyone went like "Oh Shit..." For the entire week, it was the biggest happening.

Well...Japan actually has the economy which I admire the most. They have very creative and innovative products. Aesthetically, the design of their products are also very appealing. It's really a good place to shop (if without the high price)

Now it's all wreckage. So many have lost their homes, families and friends. It just came to suddenly. There's just no such thing as certainty in life...

Make or Break

2011-03-12T16:15:00.002+08:00

It has been like one of the busiest week thus far ever since the holidays started.

But the thing is that next week is the real show...like literally. Last week of my contract and it's basically the most enriching part, I suppose. It will be an international exhibition at marina bay sands, and I'll be there handling issues pertaining to the delegates from overseas...

There's a first time for everything haha, and I just hope it turns out well.

Well...that's not the only reason why it was a busy week...it's because of scholarship applications also. Basically, I have to write an essay or two for most of the applications, but I only have arnd 4 hrs to do so after work =x So what I did was...draft out the essays at work! (Shh...but I still have many more to go and I won't be in the office for the next week =x)

Oh anw I went for the NTU open house just now. Oli and I agreed on one thing: One of the take-aways from it is definitely confusion, instead of being more clear-headed.

I need more time! XD

The Split-road of Life

2011-03-05T22:10:00.002+08:00

Went to school to collect results after lunch...honestly I didn't have much appetite and images of the possible results which I might obtain just randomly flashed across my mind...

It felt exactly the same as the first day of A levels...

Throughout the entire bus journey I felt rather uneasy...probably too tensed up already

The raindrops which kept knocking on the glass really distracted me from reading...which somehow allowed me to think too deeply, and added to my anxiety...

Nevertheless, it was great to be back in school...seeing the old classbench (though its position has changed and it didn't feel the same) and my classmates and friends...

I'm really grateful for the results I received...they don't really represent my effort alone...my family, relatives, the tutors and my friends...they kept my engine running and moving forward

However, the day was not so perfect after all...it's not like the "...Happily-forever-after" kind of ending we always see in shows...

Reality is sometimes harsh and cruel. There were quite a number of people crying...in sorrow.

Thankfully there were friends around comforting them.

Nevertheless, we stayed back to play volleyball and at night we went to splurge our money in a restaurant haha...(I didn't expect that to happen so i the end there was only a 2 dollar note left in my wallet oO)

On a side note, recently I have read a book which helps people to lead a successful life...and there was this inspirational sentence that goes something like...

"God wraps his gifts to us in the form of problems...the bigger the gift, the greater the problem..."

Whether u believe in god or not, never be afraid of the problem confronting u, and never ever give up.

P.S. Now I have a lot of things to think and do for uni application omg...does anyone want to give me some opinion on msn?

Will it be a GOOD Fiday?

2011-03-03T22:38:00.003+08:00

Oh...4th of march yea?

Going back sch 2mr...specially to take a slip of paper haha

Somehow I don't feel that nervous...no point in worrying about it anyway...I guess the grades were already printed on the paper last winter haha

Unlike those who took the O level...it's my first time receiving such "official results" oO
Therefore somehow this flimsy sheet of paper is going to have quite a significant influence on my future...*pray real hard*

Now I'm thinking...I will be quite busy thinking about my future and taking action to carve it out after tomorrow? But I guess I have to leave it till after I finish working...

Oh and I was kinda touched when all my colleagues wished me good luck and jiayou when I got off...thanks so much

For the dunno how many-th time, good luck to me! (and everyone else XD)

Monday Blues

2011-02-28T22:08:00.002+08:00

Couldn't seem to concentrate at work, but I don't know the reason why...

I realised that on mondays I tend to have this problem, for the many years back. That's why on mondays lessons had always been quite dreadful, and it's nap time during afternoon lectures haha...
Hmm thinking of it that's one of the good points of being a student! You can sleep during afternoon lectures (while others are being attentive, or...), but you just can't let it happen at work =x

Fortunately coffee works well on me...and it has became one of my best frens for now haha

Actually I have been thinking about something...and I believe others are thinking about this same thing...

For this week...if my Monday is blue, what colour will this Friday be? (Hmm...)

Sorry for making you feel worried or tensed up out of a sudden, but yea that's how I feel too haha (though I did not have any weird/wonderful dreams about it unlike some of my frens)

I don't think I'll be working this Friday, or else I will not be productive again with the entire core of my brain blocked up by the images of the possible results I'll get...

I will update soon! Hopefully I'm able to share some good news D:

Wurk Wurk!

2011-02-22T22:58:00.002+08:00

2nd day at work! It's not as boring as I thought haha (of coz whether it's boring or not depends largely on the way you perceive it)

My job scope revolves around calling people up to promote and raise awareness of an event, as well as send follow-up emails and faxes...yes it may sound boring, but at least not tiring, or as dull as the typical telemarketing where you sell products

I've been told that the busy period has yet to come...perhaps that's the reason why I think that my job is slack haha

I wonder how many tasks I have to take up or how stressful I'll get when I need to stay back late and work OT...but despite all the possible stress and commitment, the pay for OT is attractive =)

Hope that it'll be an interesting and fulfilling experience :D

Though we do not have the ability to make all the right decisions,
we can always make every of our decision right

- Adapted from Andy Andrews

人生的定义？

2011-02-18T01:12:00.002+08:00

最近不知为何想了很多，大概是因为“人生”这两个字吧...

我们在求学的路耗上二十多年，之后努力拼搏长达四十年才赚人生的第一桶金...
这样的六十年后，提醒我们退休的钟声也随着响起...
如果要把自己的人生拍成一部电影，它会精彩吗？
这部电影有主题吗？内容丰富吗？
倘若电影真的问世, 我想没有人会想看那么枯燥乏味的六十年吧。

世界那么大, 我不会只停留在家乡以及那些邻近的土地...
到外面的世界看看，也许就会发现另一个世外桃源，就像哥伦布发现了新大陆。
“旅游不止是到各个著名景点留下自己的脚印，而是从当地人学习”，
从中强化自己的生活素质，也让自己成长...
和之前那一部电影相比，想必这部戏更美轮美奂。

能不能让自己的那部电影变得精彩，不是命运，而是抉择。

A Complete CNY

2011-02-12T23:31:00.002+08:00

It has been a long long time since i've last updated...anyone miss my posts? (i doubt so haha)

Speaking of cny...it's the first time that I spend it with my whole family =)
It really feels different especially at the reunion dinner. Hmm somehow I think my angbao money is getting lesser and lesser...aww, but either way I guess I'm going to save them up (for a rainy day maybe? lol)

For the first time, (the once dreadful) lessons did not resume after the period of angbao collection and the time spent indulging in the delicious goodies...
To me, this is certainly unusual...but on a positive note, I spent my days being a tourist with my family, to discover the places in Singapore that I might have missed when I was busy studying, as well as the brand new developments of Singapore haha

Visited the marina bay sands, lau pa sat, and last but not least...the US! I mean the Universal Studios lol XD

Hmm...since there's nth much to talk bout for the first two...I guess I'll skip them lol

IMO, the Universal Studios charges their ticket at quite a high price? (esp during the cny period =x) And in actual fact, it does not have a large territory and some exciting rides have yet to be opened...But I would recommend the 4D Shrek adventure (besides seeing the characters 'come to life' right in front of you, u FEEL the adventure haha) and the indoor egyptian roller coaster, where it's kinda pitch dark and u're flung left and right up and down just like in a nightmare D:

I guess that marks my wonderful week of being a tourist? Now I'm busy being a hunter...looking out for available jobs everyday so that I don't idle and rot at home haha...And very soon I'll get my results and...hopefully spam applications to all the courses that I'm interested in haha =))

Ciao~

Why does it have to come back?

2011-01-20T11:40:00.002+08:00

Really sorry I got lazy updating on the bits and pieces of my life...

Hmm...so why not let me update on the 'chunks' of it?

Nth much to do after coming back from HK except some meeting-ups with various ppl, and some outings lol

Then I spent like 24hrs++ at the hospital coz of pneumothorax again? 4 yrs ago it was the left lung and this time it was the right side (not the 'correct side ah =x)

Kao...this time it hurts i swear =x Having a stupid tube stuck on my right chest and it really hurts even if I only make slight movements adjusting my position on the bed...bad experience

Now I think I know why being able to sleep peacefully without pain is a bliss...

Seems like I can only rot at home for another week again...

Xmas's coming!

2010-12-22T11:50:00.003+08:00

Was sick for the past few days, probably coz I havent got used to the weather =x (and that's the reason why the blog laid there stagnant for quite some time lol)

Hmm...it seems like there's nth much i want to do here alr...it's just shopping and eating, and some workout everyday (thanks to the fine weather now)

Ah maybe i'll complete reading the book i've bought in sg before going back =)

And oops...i haven found the stuff that i'm supposed to buy back aww

I wonder how this yr's christmas will be like with my family? Kind of looking forward to celebrating it in a place other than sg, though im not a devoted christian haha

Today...supposed to eat out and celebrate the 冬 haha. Don't ask me, I dun know much bout the traditional practices here XD

I'll update again soon!

It was like a dream =)

2010-12-16T17:44:00.002+08:00

Oh it has been 3 days since I blogged...

Was too tired to blog coz i've been coming home at arnd 12am after bringing my classmates around and hanging out with them...and now after i've just woke up after taking some flu medicine that made me drowsy, I really think it was like a dream, a long but pleasant one...

I guess I reached the hotel earlier than they did =) Then we went for a simple but filling lunch...then we went to tsam shui po (ah the drinks from 歇脚亭 made us all bloated LOL), and i found an ice skating ring which i really felt like going into it! hahaha...then we shopped for a while and...hmm...went to langham place I think...H&M...hmm...totally new to me -.- and now i've forgotten where we went at night...oh yea we ate in mongkok after finding sheila and we went shopping around 女人街...uber cheap macs for supper XD

The second day was a 山顶 trip...thanks to the visitor's centre and my dad who made the navigation easy. It was bus-->ferry--->bus--->tram lol, then we went straight into the wax museum after seeing bruce lee >< (gah i swear the wax museum was expensive, and sorry weeteck i think i still owe u money lol -.-). IMO, that place is not really recommended, coz the wax figures are not really up to expectation...you'll feel disappointed when "Jay chou looks like 李腾" (quote from jiaming) and "大S becoming fat S" (i think kiaguan or oli said this) hahaha! Oh and I think Ip Man has his 'signature pose' wrong =(

And towards the end of the trip I started to feel sick, even though the night scene was really nice...

Going back down to town was more troublesome...many tourists came and we had to queue to board the tram down =x after that I think it was alr 9 when we reached the star ferry in tsim sha tsui, and we broke into groups...Jm, sj, oli and me tried to walk back from the star ferry towards the hotel...lol we went shoe-hunting at parklane on the way again XD

Actually I was contemplating whether I should go to ocean park with themon the next day, but since my lungs are giving me problems...i didn't go coz it's not worth going there w/o taking the rides =x Haha but they won alot of soft toys and we ate 烧鹅 at night at some restaurant near the hotel (its oil kept me warm oO)

The last day was...shopping at the factory outlets at tung chung (yay shoes again). Lol some of them seriously went on a shopping spree...and we saw ken yeow oO dinner at the cafe near hotel and card games followed by "cocktail-tasting + macs for supper" and then spamming songs in the hotel room till today's morning when i left after they've boarded the bus to the airport...

It was more of them bringing me around i guess? haha or else i dont think i'll go to so many places within just 3-4 days...especially when the weather had mood swings and drops to 10 degrees like today omg...

They should be reaching Singapore alr by now...and i guess i'll have to find things to do for these 2 weeks XD Playing Wii at my bro's hse when it's cold it's a good option i suppose? And maybe going for dance classes is good too =)

Really sorry for the long post but I hope to share this nice dream of mine haha

Saying Farewell...

2010-12-12T02:02:00.002+08:00

Attended my grandma's funeral over these 2 days...

It's not really like those in Singapore...a new but definitely sad experience...

Actually it's a pity that I didn't get to see her for the last time before she passed away...when A levels just began...and i was certainly worried that that point in time whether I have to rush back despite the exams

Perhaps it is this kind of event that brings everyone together in this big family together...and it's quite obvious coz everyone will start asking another how him/her is doing recently when they meet

Not really cold here but the gusts of wind r really chilling *shivers*

Went to some Vietnamese restaurant to celebrate my brother's belated birthday...haha the soft shell crab was yummy...but the satay...can be improved haha (and you all shouldn't really complain about the satay in singapore, they are way nicer, trust me) Then went to walk walk abit to enhance the digestion process and YAY i went to play Wii at my bro's hse XD Some super mario game which was...rather entertaining but the real highlight was the rabbits party or something (like raving rabbits) LOL...they are uber cute! ok i shall conquer that game soon...really cute haha

OH and on the way home after dinner...I saw anrui and i think some of his other friends, but I didn't realise it coz either I was too tired or...the contrast was bad, yea u get what i mean lol...LOL and...it was really dam obvious coz people on the streets all wear till quite thick with long pants and stuff, but they were wearing shorts i guess, and some were even wearing slippers if i'm nt wrong! =x

Ok...it's 2am in the morning...gtg alr...gotta fetch my fellow classmates and be a no-license-tourguide later on...hope nothing goes wrong haha

Night~

Goodbye SG...for now...

2010-12-08T23:55:00.002+08:00

Sorry didn't blog even though A levels are over! Just spent alot of time playing and playing to empty those technical jargons and the long chain of scientific theories on my brain, so that I can start thinking of my future, or indulge in things that I really enjoy doing =)

Now that I think of it, 2 years are over...and yea i still feel that I'm a jc student lol, just that I dont have to attend lectures or tutorials anymore...

It's the same kind of feeling when I had to leave Taiwan last year...saying goodbye to friends whom, unfortunately, I may not get to see again...

But...life just goes on...and we shoudn't be always looking back...

Before A levels began I was looking forward to going to HK, and here it is...it's 2mr -.- gah

Spent some time packing my luggage, giving frens my contact number...haha...hope this will be an exciting trip...

Oh...a little reward for those who read this boring blog of mine perhaps? u can post on the tagboard things that u would like me to bring back from hk for u =) But please dont be too demanding haha XD

While tidying up my room...i chanced upon the little letters that my Taiwanese friends sent to me...memories came rushing back yea...and i really liked this quote from 其儒...

“躲进世界的角落，
请保持安静，
忘记时间，做回你自己，
在这里你自己就是整个宇宙...”

也许这就像你这个诗人所说的, 这句话的确提醒了我...
我想我需要一些时间去寻找真正的自己，以及自己想要的到底是什么，才能打开通往“人生”这条路的大门...谢啦，朋友。

To my friends~cya in HK, hope it will be fun hahaha

To my nice bed in Sg...sorry i'll miss u lol...

Ok bye~i'll keep updating! =)

4 more to go!

2010-11-20T14:28:00.004+08:00

Yea actually it's more of 4-1 more to go hehe

Econs was a tiring paper...and it's quite retarded when i cant pen down what i was thinking fast enough. Most of the time when inspirations came to my mind, my brain was processing at a faster speed than my hands...could have substantiated more

And I am starting to worry for essays...somehow I have a feeling that 'new' types of questions will come out and I will take quite some time to fully understand the question...I don't want to get single digit score for micro questions again -.- It's a waste of time lol

Suddenly I began to think about the 'withdrawal effects' that will come into existence after all the papers...

After all I think i've kind of gotten use to this kind of 'mugging' lifestyle =x Somehow I think there r really meaningful and interesting things to be done after A's, but thinking that I'm gonna put aside all the notes for the 2 years soon makes me feel relieved and yet awkward...

Yeah~freedom is on it's way haha

Oh no...

2010-11-17T15:03:00.002+08:00

Gah what a dilemma...

It's physics 2mr yet I'm worrying for econs...

Should really have started on econs way before hand

The game begins...

2010-11-08T19:02:00.001+08:00

Time to go all out...

Jiayou everyone! All the best for A's =)

Saturation...

2010-11-03T21:12:00.002+08:00

Ahhh cannot tahan already...everytime i see the notes i feel so disinterested to continue

I think I need a break from studying...but is it even possible =x

Spent some time looking through my previous tests and stuff...and i realised i didn't improve much at all? Kept making the same old mistakes, especially careless mistakes that i shouldn't be making...Somehow I have a feeling that such mistakes r going to kill me this time

I still need much more practice...but I guess i don't have the luxury for it unless I forgo other subjects which is not feasible...

Guess I just have to look on the brighter side of life lol

I wanna Chill Out =x

2010-10-25T16:30:00.003+08:00

Honestly, things havent been getting into my head...

I really hope that A level starts tomorrow or something, which will then end the grueling period of stress and stuff...but then I don't have confidence that i'll actually ace it (I don't have a choice), how ironic...

Looked at some kids playing volleyball at the basketball court near my house during 1 of my many break-time XD I wanna have a workout!! (but definitely not alone =x)

Ahh ok I shall maximise the amount of time I have left...after all it's really slacking after A levels...oh maybe not lol

So WARM!

2010-10-16T23:22:00.003+08:00

Grr I can't concentrate at all, even when it's (slightly) more cooling at night...so unproductive

Now I'd rather tire myself out playing some sport, like what I did yesterday in school, instead of sitting in front of the table where more things are diffusing out as compared to things which r supposed to go in to my brain

Now I realise that the problem threatening the environment is like really getting serious? I know that there's a period of time in a year when it gets really hot, but the degree of hotness is really increasing? Can't imagine what it'll be like next year...

3 more weeks...trying to cram as much as I can...

Troubled...

2010-10-11T17:57:00.002+08:00

Ah I don't know how to juggle between the subjects with the limited amount of time left...given that I didn't excel in any of the subject...

Zzz and screw the weather, now i'm going to fall sick coz of the sudden rapid change in temperature going in and coming out from the LTs -.-

I guess I should turn in early tonight and not to think too much =x

...

2010-10-07T14:44:00.002+08:00

Feeling down...

How I wish i'm a bit smarter, so that I don't have to worry for A's...

Hmm...is it stress?

2010-10-05T22:18:00.005+08:00

Havent been mugging consistently recently...

and i realised that my prelim grades (excluding econs) are currently in an alphabetical order...zzz i remember how i got the same kind of grades last year too, and the bottom 2 were always...gp and econs -.-

Time is running...

Oh I think I saw this on TV...

在中国的某一个乡村里，
住着一位老婆婆。
可惜的是，这位老婆婆失去了她的双臂...
对我们来说，可能失去了双臂就等于失去了一切...
可是，她仍然坚强地活着，
用她的双脚洗脸，写字...
如果连失去双手的人都毫无抱怨地过活，
那四肢健全的我们应该要更强韧，更愈挫愈勇...
毕竟只有我们自己才能主宰我们的命运...

Hope this is useful for those who feel discouraged...

200th post XD

2010-10-02T15:17:00.002+08:00

Wow my 200th post alr...now i kinda forgot when I created this blog

Finished a rpg ytd =x And now the math tys booklet is like another rpg to me...math-drilling

5 more weeks left...and 1 week passes just like that, which means...*break neck*

screw it my math sucks -.-

Motivation?

2010-09-29T22:52:00.002+08:00

Didn't go for physics today...wasn't feeling v well since last night

It feels nice to be able to rest at home, i'm really tired, even though there aren't any more lessons...so i guess i'm just 'mentally' tired

Another short day 2mr which ends at 9.30 (I have to spent 2 hrs travelling to and fro for 1.5 hrs of lesson omg...what high opportunity cost involved...)

Ok better pack for 2mr in case i miss out anything important~

有感而发：

其实考试最可怕的，
不是那些为难我们的试题，
而是自己那自暴自弃的心态，
和容易被摇摆的决心。

夢想只是個名詞，你要想辦法把它變成動詞。

2010-09-23T11:38:00.005+08:00

Hmm I think that's a nice sentence ^^ (from achord's blog)

But sadly I haven't really found my 夢想...perhaps i've yet to realise my personal values

One more paper before post-prelims, and a month more to A levels, so much more things to do...

I practically lost steam since last week...and I'm going to do badly for Math, ouch =x Haha i kind of panicked when I saw questions that looked so alien to me, and all the unknowns that I had to solve for, in an average time of 15mins...what a nightmare

I think it's really cool how we memorise so much information and being able to switch from one subject to another like for 3-4 times a week, brain power lol

I need to find my motivation again...

Forgetfulness...

2010-09-19T16:16:00.002+08:00

Haha finally the week that i thought to be the most taxing was over...yay

Spent more time studying for econs than math. while i thought econs was manageable for the first time, i think i'm gonna do quite badly for math =x

LOL I think thursday's chem paper was epic...not becoz of the questions before my eyes, but the fact that i forgot to bring my pencil case to school haha, so i kind of panicked like 10-15 mins before the start of the paper while i spent some time 'amassing' the stationery i would need haha, horrible and funny experience, but i pray that it wont happen during A levels XD

Hmm played like hell after the paper...basketball, volleyball, and LAN! haha, crazy day, finally released all the stressed that was built-up =x

Gonna study for another upcoming week...

Feeling down...

2010-09-09T23:47:00.002+08:00

A bad day...no mood to do anything at all...

I just idled and allowed time to pass

Haiz...what's this...

Never expected...

2010-09-01T14:11:00.002+08:00

Prelims starts 2mr...and i'm definitely not ready for it...

Perhaps i've overestimated my abilities, coz i never thought studying for, let's say, the subject 2mr, which is GP, is such an uphill task...

I get a headache whenever i look at lines and lines of words that seem to repeat itself, and of coz, never ending. It's just equivalent to the huge pile or stack of readings and essay outlines. Yes, I don't have to read it all, but for a person like me, who severely lacks the general knowledge XD, and so fickle-minded during exams, taking a long time to settle upon a question and thus end up racing against time...i suppose it's just good for me to expose myself to a spectrum of ideas and different perspectives...

Speaking of yesterday, I was thinking whether i should go back to sch to 'celebrate' teacher's day, perhaps by mugging at the class bench...in the end, i really hated it when i kept dozing off in front of my notes, at that rate, i really wanted to give up coz i know it isn't productive at all -.-

Hmm i tink all the ranting and blaming (dunno on what also) will not do anything good for 2mr, so i better treasure the remaining time to prepare as much as i could, ahh my gp sucks, so is my physics, but i've got so little time zzz

Bye~good luck to everyone

Still playing!

2010-08-12T17:58:00.006+08:00

Rarh stayed back till 4pm today playing volleyball and captain's ball...in the hall (when i should be a guai student studying for prelims...)

And now i made myself so tired that i cant study omg =x

Survived chem and physics lecture tests today...thou i have to say i really lack understand in nuclear physics...

Time to buck up!

Ok this is something hilarious and cute~! I will start laughing when i see the minion laugh haha...Enjoy!

Class outing @ sentosa + National Day Celebration!

2010-08-07T15:18:00.004+08:00

Hmm i'm giving off heat as i'm making this post, not so much due to metabolism, but the fact im having sunburn and feeling as if im radiating heat -.-

National Day celebration was 'as usual'...this year i sat right beside the stage on the staircase...could see what's happen on and behind the stage

After lunch @ vivo, we played beach volleyball and frisbee at sentosa...it has been a very long time since i've been there...so no-life lol

The sand was just scorching-hot...every single sec i felt myself burning lol...

Oh but when it was near sunset when the temperature finally dropped i felt high and went after the frisbee aimlessly like a hound, for no reason XD

The scenery is really nice, it's just something that i would rarely see in the city...plus the seabreeze and stuff it was really a great place to relax

Ahhhh but now i'm so tired~and i'm supposed to start studying and preparing for the upcoming major exams already...I guess my revision will be really effective if i put in the same amount of 'effort' used in playing sports yesterday =)

I was really happy for the month of July coz i believe it was the best birthday i ever had...thanks to my classmates, juniors and friends for the wishes and gifts, and MAD hiphop for the wonderful ice-cream cake!!! Haha that was the greatest surprise i ever had...thou i 'saw through' it =) And the best gift they gave me was to remind me that i'm old =x Haha no la just joking...

Yea so since i'm alr so old i must start planning for my future alr...sian =x

But before i could make any rational decision about my future i would have to focus on my studies first...

Thinking of which university to go is enough to cause myself a headache...

Ok i guess all these would suffice as an update...

Yay this is gna be quite a long break...thou it's gna be a study break XD

My Future...

2010-07-22T21:09:00.002+08:00

It has been a long time since my CT talked to me...

This time he talked to me about my future, something that I should be planning and thinking deeply, but i've not

The session was rather encouraging, despite my BT grades that are far from meeting the criteria for a scholarship...

Perhaps I should not let any opportunity slip by, but honestly, I have not decided on the course that i'll be taking and i know i really should get it done asap =x

Yes it's true that we should always have a wide array of things to choose from than restricting urself to a few, or maybe just one

At the end of the day, in order to do something that u really like in uni is fully dependent upon my A lvl grades...grrr

I really need some time to search for the answer......

Boring life

2010-07-18T21:26:00.003+08:00

Grrr life sucks now...

Prelims is coming when teachers haven even finished going thru bt papers...

And the grades i got for this bt is cui =.=

Went to the university exhibition in suntec today with cherngyew, danette, fiona and layting...saw licheng there also

Haha actually i was feeling quite awkward there coz i didn't have any plan to study in UK or US， especially after hearing how much it costs per year which is like 2 or 3 times of that in Singapore =.=

Just kept taking brochures and realised that the niche areas (lol) for the schools there are usually engineering, sciences and business, rather typical

I'm quite interested in architecture after looking at NUS's brochure on that haha, but i wonder if i can cope with it =x

After that went to pizzahut for teatime (supposed to be our lunch haha)

Shag

2010-06-28T22:57:00.002+08:00

LOL cant believe i actually sat for GP paper when i had only slept for like...2 hrs plus?

The feeling definitely sucks when i was so awake on the bed since like 12 all the way until 2...

I guess it's all because i usually sleep at 1plus or 2 during the hols which made my body kinda accustomed to this new 'habit' XD

Haha but the thing is when i'm tired i get high dam easily...haha so it wasn't that bad after all (at least i had sufficient energy and a level of concentration to sit for the paper), except that i kinda got ko-ed after lunch at home =x

Good thing is that econs is in the afternoon 2mr =)

Around 1 more wk to go...

Zzz

2010-06-27T15:50:00.002+08:00

The thought of studying everyday until nearly 2 wks later really sucks...most of the time i just feel sian when i see the stack of notes

Yea and 2mr's the first day of blocks (yea im still slacking here?) XD

Was watching some documentary show on TV...a guy who is knowledgeable in the area of music, and a singer himself, was featured...dunno y but the last few lines of the show kind of caught my attention...

It was saying like though we always think that we want to earn alot of money, have high social status and etc when we grow up, this guy, though he does not hav either, enjoys what he is doing, and he is happy, even without the tangibles and intangibles which so many ppl yearn to have...

Yes, his life is very simple, and thats what makes his life extraordinary in this fast-paced society...where there are those who gave up their dreams in exchange for money and fame...

It makes me ponder upon myself about the perception towards life, esp my own life...and to every individual, i think it's important to live his own life, he has to know what he wants in order to do so...but honestly i myself, am not sure of what i really want, what i want to be when i grow up...it's really a difficult task to settle on a goal and have the unwavering determination to reach the destination...

Oh no...

2010-06-23T12:00:00.002+08:00

Oh no it's already the last week of the holidays!! =(

Prediction for BT: g.g

Haha omg no mood to study today...

Transcendance!

2010-06-02T01:02:00.004+08:00

Ahh late post...

3 days, 2 nights, 1 dancenight and 0 regrets...

It's over...though i didn't want it to be over so soon...

It's like exchanging 4-5 mths of practice for arnd an hr on the stage? To the audience sitting there, they may not see the effort behind, every move we execute, every formation we had, every concept in the item itself, they all take time: time to think, time to trial, time to practise, time to teach and maybe time to clean up. And after rounds and rounds of practices, the cycle might repeat itself coz the choreo or the idea itself may not be good enough...

No matter what, I really enjoyed the show.

I think Fusion was the most fun item...the music, the people, the interaction, the choreo, i'm sure the audience felt the happiness as well as the sadness. The practices for fusion 1 were really great, though we always end up sweating like siao coz we either had pe studio or like no air con until the last few wks be4 dancenight...haha i rmb how i injured myself while trying out stunts.
I'm not regretting though it did affected my practices. It was definitely not easy for the choreographers to replace one of the songs with another. More time has to be spent on the thinking of the concept and choreo, as well as teaching it to us and cleaning up. But we did it. Towards the last few weeks, almost everyone stayed until like 11. The time we had for each prac was not enough, considering the fact that there's usually other pracs be4 that. Then, the next day we attend lectures and tutorials like zombies =x Either that or i coudln't make it to sch coz of fever which was probably due to the lack of sleep =( Haha i really love the pairworks, esp when i have a crazy partner haha! Pinghui u can really brighten up the day lol （ok more like the night)

There was once i was listening to 'Let me know' on the bus on the way to sch...i tink it was on the last day of dancenight...i felt like tearing when i only heard the start of the song...
I'm not sure why either...just felt emotional out of a sudden...maybe it's coz it will be the last time i'll be dancing to such a nice song that engages me...on the stage...with my friends

Anan's item was the least worrying of all...
Nice and smooth choreography (thou i spent some time trying to get some parts of the guy's choreo XD)...and teaching was completed a few wks be4 the actual show so there's ample time for us to clean up (until we hav to do the item like more than 5 times a day haha)

And omg...other than the guys' and j2 part...we still hav to be part of the girls' choreo, coz have to help the j1s when they're changing lol (ok yingyen sry for forgetting to help u sometimes =x, i do hav STM haha)

Sian...one thing is that i tink my endurance and stamine is too poor to execute the 2 choreos nicely and consecutively...by the time when it comes to halfway of the j2 choreo i find it hard to tense my muscles =x so i tink i'll look nua and out of control in the videos =(
But overall, i still LOVE the choreos haha

Then comes J2 hiphop...also the last item during DanceNight =(

It really took us alot of time to think of the concept for the item...
At first we wanted to make use of actions or movements that can be seen easily during lectures and tutorials to hit beats (e.g. dozing off, dropping pen, flipping notes etc)
Then we changed it coz we were only given 6.5mins...which was obviously not long enough to do all the fun things =x haha den we broke ourselves up into 3 distinct groups...now even all the acting in front hav to be cut...

Haha yea and i got the chance to choreograph again...and this time i really wanted to do my best coz it's probably the last time i'm choreographing something that i can do together with all these great friends of mine XD Heh i always get stuck while choreographing...sometimes i feel that the part is not smooth enough or not presentable, then i hav to change it...ahh that made me thinking bout the choreo everyday back then...And sometimes i'm so annoyed by either myself or the choreo that i become so bad-tempered...all for nothing =x

I really have to thank the PAIKIAs! You all were great im honest...haha sorry for being so demanding sometimes =x Thanks everyone for making j2 hiphop such an enjoyable item =) Haha that reminds me...when we were behind the curtain during intermission before the start of the item...we'd do random things! e.g. putting ur shoe/finger/hand out of the curtain, or looking at wangchi's glowing logo behind his shirt (to mark our position) haha...anything and everything! I wish we could do that again...

Hmm I think the juniors have fun too...and i think i ought to thank them for giving us support everytime we walk down the stairs leading to the rua from the stage...and cheering for us when we're doing j2 hiphop =) Thanks!

Hmm...this was how i spent the first half of 2010...now i think 6 mths are really short...

And now, like what junan told me, dancing has become less stressful now
We no longer have to make sure every move and every angle in our choreo is perfect for the show...now we can just enjoy ourselves while doing choreos, and freestyling =)

Thanks MAD! ♥

P.S. sorry for the long post...

1 more week to Dance Night'10!

2010-05-23T01:19:00.002+08:00

It felt like days when we awaited for DanceNight to come, and now we have only a week left, with unclean choreos as well as expressions and etc...

Today was indeed a crucial day - the only chance to try out the audi stage

But guess what...i was sick and feeling weak, that i screwed the first run =x I've forgotten moves that i usually wont forget during pracs, tried to smoke thru some parts of the items, went out of control and so many things that i didn't want them to happen at all

So i spent the break interval before the 2nd run to reflect upon all the mistakes...i kinda asked myself why i wanted to dance, what was my initial motivation/objective for joining MAD and etc...
and thou i sometimes have different answers to that question, i guess it all comes down to the passion to/for dance...

And somehow, i felt my energy coming back. Yes it felt so great really. Things went on much smoother as compared to the first run. Everyone had higher energy level, and there was flow in the item. Yup it was a great confidence booster, and i really needed that for j2 hiphop coz for some parts im standing right in front and i noe i cant afford to make mistakes =x Yup i guess it was ok except that i nv control my moves properly sometimes, and forget about my expression zzz

There was something interesting during the run too...some ppl feel that the music is slower than usual, but i tink it's because of the adrenaline within each and everyone of us. It gives me energy to execute moves properly, but it is also able to cause me to lose control.

Hmm seems like i'm typing all the mistakes that i've made and pointers for me to take note of so that i can take this one last week to prepare myself for the last greatest show before i graduate

Yup, now i feel emo coz i only hav this last week to dance like MAD! after that i tink i'll rot with all the books and notes =x Aww~

Ok there's gonna be prac everyday this week, so i better slp early~haha

Still...tired

2010-05-16T15:06:00.003+08:00

Ahhh my hair is dam short now~! lol look dam guai and tard ·_· lol 1 and a half more week to let it grow oO

Hmm my thigh and leg is like forever suan whenever i wake up. No time to let them have a proper rest...sometimes during dance pracs i realise i cant even tense my muscles properly omg~

It was a really stressful and tiring week, dance pracs are not time for us to fool around. We have to chiong like MAD =)

At times, I did think of giving up...

It is really hard to work around the tight schedule and perfecting every single move and every single choreo as well as expressions and the 'feel' reflected by the flow and power of our moves...
It's definitely more stressful as a choreographer, not only me but many others, to try to maximise the potential of every beat and every snare and every piece of music we hear...and time's really running out...

And like what the seniors have said, even if our moves are executed nicely, we might not be able to engage the audience with the 'message' in our dance, performing on the stage is definitely not only about trying to do the moves as taught

Ok shan't sound so emo...we have to treasure the 2 weeks left be4 our last performance =)

Lol im kind of addicted to the ip-man thing (i guess only the hiphoppers will noe what i'm talking about)

Really exhausted...

2010-05-02T15:37:00.002+08:00

Haha it's really nice to dance everyday until night...but i wonder if my body can take it

Salt run was fun =)) eh but the feeling of being hungry for so long is not nice...sometimes u see people not acting like themselves haha (coz a hungry is an angry man?)

Didn't have any chance to stone during the salt run, unlike last year...

The organising team is efficient i guess...i really dun wan dancenite be like the salt run...

Haha i always keep missing my partners' hands during fusion pairwork zzz...hilarious moments

I guess anan's item was better than j2 hiphop, and we definitely have to 'revamp' our concept for j2 hiphop this wk omg~have to clean up choreo like siao also =x

Haiz...it's so true that we didn't leave anything behind when we danced for the past year, nothing so great that we can be really proud of...

Sad...

2010-04-14T22:19:00.002+08:00

Shit i was late for prac coz i was playing bball, what a bad example to the jnrs =x

Grr totally dying during prac after 2.4...no mood to freestyle

Towards the end of the prac, jiale and ja told me that fusion 1 might be scraped, which totally stunned me...i guess we all knew that there might be ppl who won't be able to do fusion 1 coz of their results, but i never thought that it will be scraped...let's hope that it wont happen

I guess the pain was much more immense for the choreographers who devoted their heart and soul in brainstorming for the outline of the item and choreoing the moves...

Really wanted to send bernice off at the airport...but yea i guess i really needed the time to settle the stuff i have to do in order to meet the deadline, sorry friend. I was actually feeling bad about it on the way home...i guess i've regretted the choice that i've made =x

Haiz...school and dance, i really cant juggle between the two...

Sick! for the 'n'th time...

2010-04-08T22:29:00.003+08:00

Grrr i kinda lost my voice! Have been having really bad coughs i would say

Can see that everyone's falling sick omg...

I still went for prac ytd when i didn't hav aching joints and limps without strength...and the dividend was correcting one of the anan moves in the choreo which i did until dam niang XD Bleagh.

I've been slacking since the end of blocks zzz...and im worried for all the SPA...and napfa haha

Oh meeting some random person 2mr...hmm...

Ok this is the end of the meaningless update -.- ciao

Let's stop mugging...for now

2010-03-27T23:45:00.002+08:00

Blocks are finally over...im relieved of the load on my shoulders

Now i have better sleep and appetite, really...

I guess im quite satisfied with the papers...except for chem which really demoralized me.....

It's the first time i couldn't finish a chem paper...and in the end when most of my classmates were talking bout the answers then i realized that i got alot of them wrong...which means yea, im probably going to fail -.- Perhaps i was too complacent...

And if fail = 1 less item for dance night, then it's gonna hit me even harder coz chem was one of the subjects that i had the most confidence to score

Hope the rest of the hiphoppers are alright...

Seems like the fatigue built up during the blocks period is beginning to take effect...

Oh btw, i just cant stop laughing at this video~It's so dam entertaining =)

March Hols~

2010-03-14T00:03:00.002+08:00

Shit i tink i got killed by GP XD Didn't do well for essay i guess...poor time management -.-

1 more week before all the H2 tests...but it seems like i only have half the holiday to mug for them...hmm...

Just came back from STJ! Haha the juniors r fun =D But the food = '2 spoons' haha XD

Zzz it was a hard choice choosing between watching sbdc and stj....but i chose the latter coz i promised the guys tat i'd be there...

Maybe i'll go next wk...if i manage to absorb all the information on my notes lol =DD

Mug to dance, dance to mug d-_-l|b

1 more week to BLOCK TEST!

2010-03-05T23:12:00.002+08:00

Grrr 1 more week to GP! then the H2 subjects omg~why do I have to mug so soon when im in the mood to groove and move!?

Consecutively 3 days of prac = 3 days of down and upbeats, core training and freestyle =D Shit i really dunno what im doing when im freestyling...my mind's empty zzz~must freestyle more haha

Witnessed how happy the seniors were when getting back their results today...everyone who came into t studio had at least 4 As omg? I wonder if it will be the same/even better when we are the ones harvesting the fruits of our endeavour same time next year...

I guess it's time for me to settle down and study...

Fac CIP 2mr! Let's go!

新年新希望

2010-02-21T20:57:00.006+08:00

Hmm the period of new yr is coming to an end...

Have been having good food recently haha =D Growing fat liao...perhaps it's good that i didn't get to eat ba gua this year =x

I've been slacking lately omg~don't feel like doing work after I get home everyday, esp when i get home late...will just stare at the com or sit in front of the TV and rot...zzz -.-

Oh Hiphop auditions was fun! (thou i wasn't really that involved haha)

Very interesting to see how the j1s learn the choreo and do their freestyle...made me think of how i actually looked in front of the seniors when i went for the auditions last year...

It was nice to see ppl doing all sorts of different things for freestyle, to 1 single piece of music...makes me wonder just how much a song could actually inspire if dance is inspired by music

Oh and the second round is coming in 2 days~that will kinda decide who the juniors will be...looking forward to that =D

Ahh need to settle hiphop hoodie~

在新年期间收到其儒写给我的卡片...
还蛮感动的 =D
他还送了一句话来鼓励我...
"嘘！~躲进世界的角落，请保持安静...
忘记时间，做回你自己，在这里你自己就是整个宇宙。”
真的很感谢你...
希望你也能心想事成

10S69

2010-02-04T21:31:00.003+08:00

Ah...it feels so nostalgic to see the teaching of fac dances...painting of class banners and preparation of the CT items T_T

Though i can't remember all the things that we've done when we were the J1s...some memories are still etched in my mind...

The cute little banner we painted together until night...and the dance item that the whole class stayed back to prepare together...

And it was our turn to teach them fac dance today, and to guide them through the things ahead...

Haha...10S69 is rather enthu =D Though they faced some difficulties learning the fac dance haha...lucky danette was teaching some of them behind

Could have helped them out during banner painting and stuff...but was busy rehearsing for cny performance...

Speaking of the performance...

MAD has come together to put up something that's really interesting, at least for a festive occasion like CNY...

For us, although we lack the control and sharpness...I was really touched to see pinghui, junan, cherie, qianrui and jiale keep on trying...im sorry that i am that demanding but yet u all still asked me to play the track over and over again...so that u all can practise more...that's the spirit man =) Thanks!

2mr's orientation campfire~

Ad Infinitum?

2010-01-29T23:31:00.002+08:00

Haha these 2 days the new J1s revived the somehow dead environment with their cheers which can be heard very clearly even during tutorials lol

These 2 wks gonna be tormenting...

CCA exhibition on wed...pracs for CNY and orientation campfire?? Yea and there's still tutorials and LOL math presentation XD

This year seems very short thou i cant really explain why...but im definitely worried bout A lvls, even though some seniors have said that it's rather easy -.- Yet the teachers, dunno if they're trying to encourage us to work hard or just stating the truth, are saying that the standard is rising every yr...

Grr...i feel like im lagging behind alrdy XD

Depressed

2010-01-13T18:46:00.004+08:00

Zzz wth screwed up fac dance today...

People asked for my help and that's wad i gave them wth...i wasn't being complacent, but i just couldn't catch the music and execute the steps like i normally do...

Shouldn't even have agreed to it without giving it a thought whether im able to do it...

My confidence was totally shattered after the first dance, and i felt even worse after the 2nd..omg

Fortunately it didn't affect the hiphop performance, or else i'll just bang my head on the wall -.-

Open house wasn't as nice as i expected it to be

I can only blame myself for that. I really have to stop playing a fool and be serious for everything for this important year...

School's starting!

2010-01-09T17:03:00.002+08:00

Oh no another day before school's back again...

Was looking at ppl's new yr resolution...and i realised i haven decided on mine

Honestly i didn't really spend time thinking of it...coz at the end of the year, we all want it to be memorable year, with all the straight As, scholarship, preferably some awards as recognition and so on...

Though i didn't get H3, or that i dun wan to take up moe h3, i think i would have more time to buck up on my math and gp...which really need extra attention =x (I guess i need tuition...any suggestions? XD)

Other than that i would also have more time to dance...yea, half a year left be4 i wave goodbye to it and become a nerd who keeps on mugging T_T

Perhaps one thing that i didn't regret since the start of my jc life is going for the auditions...

And so...this year is gonna be filled with more than 50% of mugging XD

The rest are uncertainties...i haven even decided on what i want to be when i grow up lol

It's a NEW year!

2010-01-06T10:56:00.003+08:00

Oh and it's a NEW year! (yea im lagging XD)

Time to update haha...

First time i went for count down with TIP peeps at yufong's hse =D Haha his hse dam big...we watched movies, played basketball, mahjong, dota oO webcam with the taiwan ppl haha

Oh and we drank alot XD but the thing is i didn't even sleep, so basically most of us were so shag that we were like zombies when we went for breakfast haha

After that i met mum at plaza sing...coz she wanted to buy something...that was how the new year day concluded =))

The day be4 i went back sch for open hse rehearsal...

Thought it was going to end at like 3...but our turn was at 4 omg...i had to forgo the 69 outing =x

Went to eat with the rest (except the dance camp comm ppl) at the xin wang hk cafe near sch (oh only den i realised the new york new york is gone)...haha it was quite ex XD but we made alot of jokes and stuff *blink blink*

Ytd was 附中 outing =D about 10 ppl went for lunch together, den 7 of us went to sing at some ulu place in serangoon haha XD it was quite cheap eh...we sang until like 8 den when to eat subway haha...

Having prac today~

Ytd xulie told me that he feels like it has been 2 years ever since he came back from Taiwan...and i told him that i guess his memories are fading away...yea and tat's dam sad =(

有时候我会抬头看着天空，
因为它会安抚我的情绪，
但也会令我想起我在台湾看到的那片天空，
虽然我知道我看的是我熟悉的同一片天空，
但在台湾它看起来特别的蓝，特别宁静，特别地吸引着我...
也许我喜欢的不是那片天空，
而是我在看着天空的当而所想起的点点滴滴...
我会喜欢那片天空...
是因为有朋友的陪伴, 天天都过得无忧无虑，
但现在我看到的天空不一样了，
随着时间的流逝，新的一年又来了...
我现在看着天空，是为了暂时逃避忙碌，忘却烦恼...
我想要的那片天空，它还会出现在我的眼前吗...?

Dance Camp!

2010-01-02T11:04:00.003+08:00

Hmm dance camp was really tiring...but everyone had fun and got to know to one another better XD

As usual the first day was rather...quiet coz everyone wasn't high and stuff but the games were great haha...and we had cross div modern XD the stretching was omg~then we had games like eating the freaking hanging bread that is so hard to catch lol

And our group is named we dont give a dam (poor Girvan who insisted on 一条龙 XD)

The 2nd day was so packed with instructor lessons XD we had lyrical jazz and reggae in the morning...then cross div hiphop and then bboy...wow...haha lyrical jazz and reggae was fun =D then at night we still have the human board game thingy which seemed like a PT session haha...
me and sarah had to stay back to choreo for hiphop for the showcase session...haha so rush and stressed XD thanks sarah~

water games was meng haha (oh unglam photos XD) of coz we were wet all over thanks to station masters like vern and jin faye XD but yea everyone enjoyed it lol

Last day...here is where the stress comes in haha...

We started off with mr Dan's modern...omg the stretching was like XD my muscles were like out of order after 2 days den stretching makes it even more painful lol...and there was still conditioning =x And the choreo he taught us had alot of jumps and stuff, yea so even more exhausting XD

Then we set off for amazing race...first in sch...den lunch, and we went to the area near taka...where we bboyed at the street and completed random tasks haha XD

Oh..freestyle session! haha...looped hiphop, bboy and modern songs for us to zi high XD I tink i did better than the previous freestyle during anan's prac...but yea there's stil alot for me to improve and learn...haha it was interesting to c non-moderners trying out modern..and wei sheng did locking haha =D it was just high~

Oh and we split into our own groups for the showcase preparation (haha imba funny yet stupid storyline of our group XD)...learning choreos of another div and remembering the acting parts and stuff...

and we got first for the showcase! (yay claps)

haha hav to thank everyone (esp girvan) for coming up with such a nice storyline haha
and bernice, ryan for mixing the music =D

And junan did a great job organising the entire camp, 加油~

Yup...end of story...

Christmas Eve!

2009-12-25T02:19:00.004+08:00

Ah quite a long day today, though i woke up at like 11...

Accompanied mum to 313 since she wanted to buy some winter clothes for her Taiwan trip (Ahh taiwan~i want go also XD)

Met my pri sch classmates, like finally after like a yr ago yay =D

Hmm...i met them at novena (grrr they were late XD), den we went to Chin Huat steamboat...eh it was quite nice leh! reasonable variety of food available...

Ok then we went down to orchard at arnd 9...started walking and slacking around and realised that there were alot of ppl there until we had to detour here and there haha

Then we went to the cafe in cine to have a drink, took a rest and had a good chat until it was like 10 mins be4 CHRISTMAS~Haha we rushed outside cine...the ppl there were like spraying one another

Oh then we tried to walk to the mrt...it was so jammed and packed with ppl argh. Everyone of us got sprayed by random strangers haha, so sticky...

Haha it was the first time i spent my christmas eve at orchard! (yea haha im a noob XD)...

Thanks my frens! and thanks jinghui for organising this gathering =D Let's meet up soon again!

台湾之旅第一章

2009-12-22T22:37:00.004+08:00

台湾之旅: 第一章...

Woke up at around 7 though I slept at like 1 haha

Mum accompanied me to the airport…had breakfast there be4 taking group photo, check-in and stuff

Was really excited to be at the airport coz it means that we will be in Taiwan in a few hrs time!

Haha we boarded the plane when the announcement called for LAST CALL haha…and we were like the first sch to be there XD

OOH we boarded a nice plane haha…watched 2 movies =D Er…one of the was UP! The other…some retarded HK show haha…kept me entertained for like 3-4 hrs =D But the food was so-so (kinda disappointed) lol…Oh and Eugene and Jane talked to me quite often so I wasn’t bored =) Thanks mates

Reached Taiwan International airport at around 4.40 in the afternoon…cooling 19 degrees =D

Haha grabbed our luggage and took the bus to 建国高中 where I met my buddy’s parents haha…

Took group photo with the hosts and students from my buddy’s sch – 师大附中

REALLY happy when I saw him along with other familiar faces outside of the hall! All the wonderful memories came rushing back into my head…

His mum then drove me home…I LOVE HIS DOG! IT’s CALLED MOCHA omg haha…some short legged dog that will be high when he sees his owner…and ME!

Oh yea his mum also kept asking me about what I would like to have for breakfast…felt so embarrassed to trouble her =x

Rarh his house is really quite cold though it’s always like 18 or 19 degrees…perhaps it’s rather high above the mountain that’s why…when I take his car home my ears would feel the air pressure XD

Ah im getting lazy to make a post of every single day XD

台湾之旅

2009-12-19T19:51:00.005+08:00

回来没几天...才发现我已把我的心遗留在台湾

虽然已经过了两个多星期...那些回忆与画面仍然历历在目, 记忆犹新...

幸好我把在附中的回忆带了回来...附中的校园，运动会，嘉芬老师（不会写XD)，曾主任（好可爱！），教官，学务处（我们的家！哈哈），俊颖（最难忘的，YEAH!），其儒（嘴炮！很潮也很老人），世扬（王妃！“YEAH太美”），方竞（‘同“鞋”！多Hor水 XD）...好多好多，谢谢你们...

当然也难忘寒冷的台北，俊颖的家，他的爸爸，妈妈（每天的早餐！感激不尽！），姐姐，mocha（好可爱，常追着我跑...) , 九份（好冷，还好有你们给我温暖 XD 好想再吃芋圆和香肠），淡水（可惜错过了夕阳），西门町（哦~好潮），五分埔（shop到挂掉XD)，公馆（在台湾的第一顿晚餐~卤味！），台北101！（风好大好冷XD，101公仔好可爱，夜景超赞！）, 士林（只能说OMG~吃到走不动 =x 鸡排真的好大！）SEVEN-ELEVEN (哈哈小吃，口香糖，集点卡!)，Dance Soul (全靠阿妈带我去见识见识 =D)...还有所有的旅游景点，旅馆（最后一晚的赞到爆！在冬天泡脚聊天哈哈)，再说下去可能要三天三夜 XD

回想起那天我带着既兴奋又期待的心情在机场等候着飞往台湾的班机...现在却只剩下一颗空虚的心灵，想起华中团的台湾朋友更是心疼

我相信2009年的这个假期是我从小到大过得最难忘，最充实的一个假期...全赖华中的这群本来与彼此默默无言，如今却像死党的朋友，以及身在台湾，给予我们无条件的爱和无微不至的照顾的你们

这十八天仿佛是一个梦，一个原本我以为很漫长的梦，但现在我才体会到它犹如昙花一现的短暂，也许我真的是失去后才懂得珍惜...我多希望我永远不要从这个梦中醒过来，多希望每天早上一睁开眼就是台北的市区...多希望每天第一眼看到的是你们...

但我知道这么美的梦已经画下句点, 到了曲终人散的结局...之后我们各分东西，面对属于自己的人生，追求属于自己的梦想，也许我们会在新加坡，台湾，或世界上某个地方碰面，也可能再也见不到彼此（好像删掉这句话 XD)...我也希望时间不要从我身上夺走那些只属于我们的回忆，让这些回忆永远留在我脑海中，陪伴着我到世界上的每一个角落...

Ahhh 你们一定要常常 msn 我！（好不甘寂寞 XD)

打完了这篇觉得好爽，因为我一直想跟别人分享台湾有多么好玩...但这次的好玩绝对不是自己到台湾就能体会到的，是这次的交流和我们的Buddy们让这一趟旅程能够刻骨铭心...

我会继续update的！（我想要赶快，不然每天在台湾的点点滴滴可能会渐渐消逝...XD)

很忙...

2009-12-05T00:18:00.002+08:00

So sorry thought i would have the time to update everyday or at least once every 2 days...

But now it's kinda impossible coz im reaching home like at 11 everyday and i have to slp at 12 to get 6 hrs of sleep haha...

At this rate i can only update EVERYTHING when i get back to Singapore (omg that's uber sad and i'll feel like crying) yea so...look forward to the pics =D

Buaiz~

2 more days...and I'm off to Taiwan

2009-11-26T19:34:00.002+08:00

Grrr fell sick...fortunately im still in singapore

Missed anan yesterday coz i went for TIP rehearsal and meeting...ahh my choreo~Matthew (or anyone) must teach me the new choreo! =D thanks

Time really flies man...that time we were still complaining that we have to wait for another 3 mths before we can see our buddies again...then now it's already the time for us to go over there and find them

Had the last rehearsal today before we perform in front of our buddies in Taiwan...quite a no. of unlucky things happened...which kinda spoiled my mood and i was actually quite pissed...sorry to those whom i shouted at or offended =x

Really looking forwards to go there...but kinda worried coz i duno how the next 2 wks will be like, and how fast 2 wks can actually pass...

Oh do tag in my chatbox if u dont c me online on msn =D coz i promise i'll TRY MY BEST to update my blog minimally every 2 days haha

Ok...hope i dont miss out the fun things in singapore when i'm away in taiwan haha

Bye for now~

Time to relax and reflect...

2009-11-15T15:41:00.003+08:00

Now OP's over too...yay~

We had CLASS CHALET on the day after OP...i cab there with wangchi and kiaguan after AnAn lol
Hmm...went there to rent bike den ate the steamboat and grill for dinner...dam HOT~but the ice cream was nice =D
The best part was night cycling i tink...my first time cycling almost non-stop from the chalet to changi airport haha...really cooling at night =D
Really enjoyed it with the class...thou some of them didn't look too happy when we didn't want to continue cycling to changi village...but nevermind, next time we will cycle somewhere that's even further together, as a class haha
Went back to chalet after that to...wash up, bathe and play cards haha...
Slept for an hour or so...woke up and felt really shag haha it was just omg...
Me and fiona just didn't wan to go back to sch for TIP prac coz we were just exhausted...
So had Macs there...packed up...and that's the end of the chalet...unforgettable =D

Busy preparing for the performance for TIP...I havent finished choreographing lol XD

Had AnAnAnAn (Double AnAn) this week...fun~
Haha totally nua and shag for the one on Fri and had to keep asking Matthew for the choreo (Sorry and Thanks matthew =D) and even the seniors joined in...

The next batch will be coming in soon...new junior class and potential dancers =D

I guess this holiday will be a great time for me to catch up with my work...think about wad i wan to achieve and...spend more time with my frens!! lol

Going Taiwan 2 wks later...looking forward to it =D But after coming back i'll have to face the reality that the holiday will end in like 2wks omg...

Ok quite a long post already....lol

PW!!

2009-10-30T20:12:00.002+08:00

Ah totally dunno what im doing for the past week...

Was dam emo on Fri and totally ignored everyone (sorry...)

Now i dont even noe wad i was emoing over...it isn't worthwhile wasting the time there strolling by yourself even if I thought about many many things which I would never ponder when im free or something...

PW OP presentation not yet settled...i guess it's the last academic burden of the year...

Then there's choreography to be finalised for TIP before we go to Taiwan...

Now i really treasure and enjoy the time which I can dance...it makes me forget everything that is stressful to me when i groove and move to the music...Still have much room for me to improve...not only in dance, but in everything i do and how i conduct myself...

I must learn how to organise myself properly man...or else end up 2hr+ going home to get my result slip for H3 application...

Talking bout H3...im not sure if i've made the right choice...though i really want to try...

But the exam is in June...right after dancenite...which is probably the last performance before we turn back to muggers and chiong prelims...HAIZZ...life's complicated sometimes...

RARH

2009-10-20T18:51:00.004+08:00

Dunno why today i feel so emo and think that everything's screwed up...

PW's one of them...so many things to do, so little time to make use of...

Performance...dunno how i should put it...perhaps adrenaline has taken over me....
Forgot everything on how to make the moves look nice and clean and sharp and wadever...

I'm angry with myself...

Holiday's coming...yet i dun even tink i deserve it...

Perhaps someone can talk to me...haha

The world of black and white...

Post Promos...

2009-10-17T10:51:00.003+08:00

Haha going to sch only for PW and PE -.- Play sports everyday!

PW is sian anyway...but den OP has such a large weightage...cannot dao =x

Gonna get back the papers this wk...screwzzz

Looking forward to more activities and outings! Like going kbox on mon haha =D

Let's dance!

Graffiti is cool =D

Happy yet sad...

2009-10-09T10:04:00.001+08:00

Survived GP, Econs and Chem....

Screwed Math...

No mood to study for physics...

Haiz...

Dead like the blog

2009-09-21T00:08:00.002+08:00

Endless stuff to mug...but left with only 2 weeks...

Somemore there r assignments and tests this week...then i cant mug wadever i want in peace

Went for MAF yesterday...around half the class was there...quite nice and quite fun =D

But then i wasn't feeling happy like how it should've been...dunno why

Perhaps im quite sick of life out of a sudden...a life with the same things happening over and over again like an endless cycle where people like me are lost

Took some photos during MAF...will post them up when i've the time...

Teacher's Day?

2009-08-30T10:30:00.002+08:00

Haha Teacher's Day is here...which means EOY is like so soon?

Totally forgot bout going back to pri sch or whatsoever coz have been busy practising for the teacher's day performance...my first time...

Last prac today~den have another day of holiday woo

Nothing much to update anyway...

TIP

2009-08-10T17:13:00.000+08:00

Dam long never update! Sorry to those who visit my blog, are there people who visit my blog?

2 weeks of hosting has worn me out...but yea, it's very memorable to have friends from Taiwan

Wasn't expecting it to be this...'impactful', yea, like how yizhuang described it...

I brought my buddy to almost every part of Singapore, except some ulu corners maybe, but he isn't a shopaholic, so i guess it wasn't very hard for me to plan outings...mostly we went in a group...to Fareast, orchard, amk, and blah blah

It was so hard to juggle between hosting and studies and everything else...but hosting was still my first priority since it's kinda bad if my buddy comes to spend his holiday watching me mug and do work...

They really did all out for their performances, even though the performances were short and stuff, but i guess that's something we should learn from them...

My buddy was kinda in the half-dead state after coming to my hse to live with me for a few days, all becoz i wake up at 5 every morning =D Sorry pal...

Some of them are really cool and funny people...outgoing and...nice

There was a farewell dinner for them in hci...and they actually made 1 video each to us...very very touching videos to express their gratitude and wadever mushy things that is hard to say in front of us...You guys were great =)

Then there was another farewell dinner hosted by MOE...where the montage of their memories in hci was shown, but yea, the atmosphere wasn't right, if not many would have cried...
Then yea they pushed me up onto the stage after the thing to freestyle...ahhhhh unglam lol, treat it as a gift from me ba

And i was kinda worried for my buddy coz he had fever 1 night before the day he's supposed to go back to Taiwan...luckily he recovered in time

Yea anyway their flight was delayed by 1 day since there was a typhoon in Taiwan...so we brought them to Vivo for their last day in Singapore...nothing much, but yea, we had fun and additional moments of being together haha

I'm so looking forward to go to Taiwan (or rather, for promos and pw to be over, they make me feel stressed)...let's just hope i have a wonderful time over there =D

Goodbye everyone...we will remember every single one of u...our friendship will never cease

Upload the photos yea?

Bye~

Tapestry!

2009-07-19T00:59:00.002+08:00

Another week has passed...we were told that we're just 8 wks away from promos...wth

Practised for Tapestry everyday for the week...except on Wed when the class had GEMS! (Very fun, but felt guilty since i skipped the combined rehearsal for TIP for it =x)

The class is not split into 2 classes for econs...there's a change in econs tutor...which means more tutorials on their way XD

I still have to do math, phy, econs, chem tutorial, and also gp homework...Wow~

Went for public speaking workshop today morning...was quite nervous at first, but became more confident when answering questions later on...i really lack the confidence when it comes to standing before a crowd or audience

Went to the studio @ yio chu kang after that to have full-runs, den it was the real Tapestry performance @ outside ngee ann city!

Ok the music wasn't the one i used to practise to, i believe that its speed was quite overly over =D Couldn't catch up with the music during locking, ahhhhhh

Went dinner outside taka after that, the at-first-supposed-to-have hiphop outing is gone...

Yea...i'm really tired

1207

2009-07-12T15:52:00.002+08:00

Hmm 1 week+ nv blog liao...it's July already omg...

Thanks to those who wished me happy bday =D Really appreciated it!

No mood to study after blocks...but i cant finish the I&I...nvm tapestry's coming anyway...and just nice public speaking workshop happens to be on that day -.-

Went for prac at yio chu kang from 4-9 ytd...fun =D Hiphop, popping, locking, and daryll's waacking
So many ppl there...went for dinner @ amk hub foodcourt with them at night too...famished

Peaceful birthday i would say....laze on the sofa and stare blankly...it feels rather good sometimes

More intensive pracs to come...jiayou everyone =D Just 1 more week...

Getting back block's results this week, omg...

Blocks

2009-07-04T21:03:00.004+08:00

Blocks was a torment...Forced myself to mug the notes everyday for the last few days be4 blocks...suddenly the notes became dam thick...

I think i did better for gp and econs since they were in the afternoon...i was more 'awake' ~.~

Gonna be dead for math and sciences, esp physics wth....never done an mcq with almost half of it unsolved...considering i had 2 mins per question...screwed.

But math was dam sian...wrote over 15 pages of answers in 3 hrs....like an essay la lol, though mostly in numbers and mathematical symbols

Went to zham pool for 2 hrs after math =D den joined the rest for lan for another hr after that wahaha....den zhammed macs -.-

Ahhh blocks over means need to chiong TIP and tapestry again....these should keep me busy until Aug...

Oh and yay next Sun is my birthday =) But i dun tink any1 would give me present...(coz i always forget bout other's bday too...paiseh)

Yup that's all for the update i guess...no more muggin for now...im sick of it lol

Mugging

2009-06-18T10:48:00.002+08:00

1 and a half wks left to blocks...barely subdued any subject...

Went back sch ytd early in the morning to film vid for Tapestry...but failed ><
Tired out after anan's session yesterday lol...new techniques and new routine =D
And we ate tao hui again after that...sry guys i didn't feel like playing LAN

Grats to those who got into the MAD ExCo! Those who didn't get in dont feel sad too... (including me =x)

Hmm having jts later during lunch time @ seoul garden lol...hope it's fun so that i can destress a bit and start mugging full out again...

Inspired...

2009-06-14T22:48:00.002+08:00

Yup...heartbeat's over =) We did well i suppose...but better on Friday night's show, probably becoz we were so relaxed =) Well done hoppers ^^

Saw funk faction crew (hope i spelt correctly) in action twice...they actually freestyled for some parts, but the moves were equally dope...made me jump off my chair...especially the popping and isolation...must learn from them lol

2 weeks passed...i guess it's time to study, have to force myself to do it even if i dont feel like doing it coz time is running short...

Bye people~will update soon =D

DanceXpression and MAD elections

2009-06-11T22:36:00.002+08:00

Yea the 2 events just happened to crash on the same day...

Went PE studio in the morning to pass my speech to Chuan Khim and witnessed matthew's and wangchi's choreography for the position of hiphop head...

Rushed over to salt to prepare for dancexpression....

Overall it was fun and enjoyable =) seeing them being able to dance...

But then as expected, i didn't make it to the interviews of the elections, probably coz i didn't show my face but entrusted my speech to Chuan Khim...For some reason I feel both sad and relieved: sad coz i really wanted to have a leadership position to enrich my JC life, and enrich myself...relieved coz i wont be that busy next year when it comes to the mugging period...

Life has to go on...good luck to those who made it into the interviews! There are many potential leaders there =)

Ok got to wake up early 2mr as usual...goodnight~

PBAP!

2009-06-07T20:26:00.002+08:00

Yup yesterday was the Post-BackAgain-Party at jiahong's house...

Had been having a terrible headache after i woke up yesterday...therefore didn't go for the prac in the morning

Went Jessica's hse at arnd lunch time since the rest of the hiphoppers were there...watching bride wars, eating pizza...Then after that the girls started to zao and we watched Ip Man lol! Matthew just fell in love with it coz of the signature move xD

Bus-ed down to jiahong's hse after that to find chuan kim and xiping there...planning the party and stuff...poor jiahong lol

Before we went down to cuppage plaza to have a first-hand experience with nix sang (the dance instructor) and the dancers who are hearing-impaired..We ate pizza again! I think i ate a total of like...7-8 slices of pizza yesterday...oh and that number actually makes up 1 whole box of it =O
The chicken wings and drumsticks were dope also =x

Speaking of the dance session...i guess the hearing-impaired dancers are really fortunate to have such a patient instructor like nix sang...hmm we might actually have probs running the lessons on thur and fri =x But whatever the case, we will definitely try our best =) Oh and we learned 2-eights of a dope choreo too =)

After that bus-ed back to jiahong's hse...to eat a bit and played the so called 'dare & dare'?? (that's what weishang said anyway)...me and alan kissed each other's arm grossly lol, junan and ryan had a krumping showdown, and kevin did like 10 push-ups over his...i mean patricia, then he zao out of the house to sit down a cool himself down with a drink lol...it was fun afterall

Yup...watched the vid of the DanceNight'09 sat night show...nice...but my movements still have a long way to go...Let me take inspire'09 as another chance for me to improve myself...

Thanks jiahong and the seniors for the pbap!

Another even-more-busy week commences...good luck to me and everyone else =D

Oh i didn't know chick + dog = chog...dope

Lagging...

2009-06-04T23:09:00.002+08:00

Im lagging behind...cant learn choreos fast enough >< neither can i understand academic concepts fast enough...failz

Quite alot of things to settle currently...TIP, Inspire and DanceXpression...oh they're all related to dance =) That's one of the reasons that im still able to endure...

Ahhh inspire prac and blocking crashes with class mugging session 2mr~I feel like mugging but then i also feel like practising and perfecting my steps...dilemma...And some peeps still owe me lunch =p

Quite tired now actually...but...it's still the holiday period...i must treasure whatever time I have...

Therefore...i shall go rest early 2nite and wake up early to go to sch 2mr to study and dance! haha ok whatever...bye~

Just Dance!

2009-06-02T22:15:00.002+08:00

Zzz as usual...busy with practices for Inspire'09 everyday...except today!

But then...i didn't manage to do anything constructive wth -.-

Went to settle some stuff regarding my mum's CPF...hmm...then went to buy new sch bag coz the metallic zip of my old sch bag is actually broken -.- and white shoes for dance =)

Prac @ O school 2mr! Im afraid i might get lost >< Hope I'm able to find the way and not be late lol...

There's still much more to prepare for the upcoming performances...we must work hard! jiayou!

Ok tink im gng off to do something constructive...Bye!

No holidays for me T_T

2009-05-29T22:16:00.004+08:00

Had no prac for this wk after dance night....but still dancing coz of a meaningful CIP project which aims to teach the Deaf how to dance =)

Went for the first meeting for Taiwan Immersion Prog yesterday...didn't know i actually got in until like wed/thur morning...and i might actually be doing chinese dance!?! cant believe it -.-, oh and there's still a presentation on taiwan's politics and history to be setteld argh

Last day of term today...it marked the beginning of our holiday, and it was also the last day with our chem tutor...I have to admit that he's a good tutor, but we just took things for granted, not only for chem...Now it's too late to feel sad or remorseful...life still has to go on, let's just hope that our new tutor is as good as Mr Pang =D

And we have to pay for AnAn's wages...pain =(

Oh man....I actually thought that I would still have time to mug and catch up with my studies....until we were told that we need to perform for Inspire on the 12th and 13th, and we just signed up for Tapestry too~ouch...another period of chionging pracs...

Guess I have to exercise time management and prioritising even during the holidays...coz there are just too many things for me to do...

Serenity...

Going off for almost the whole day 2mr to prac for the CIP and inspire...anything just sms me ba =) Happy Holidays!

Gaowei d-_-l|b

Problematic...Maybe not...

Ann-yeong-ha-se-yo!

一切結束之時

The End Draws Near...

It has been 11 years already...

那些上學的日子...

Mid Autumn Festival '11

We Meet Again

那首歌...

Gaming Training

我在這個世界扮演的角色重要嗎?

Hot weather, Warm me

Birthday week!

"Whut oO?"

錢, 真的這麼重要嗎?

Confinement?

A Terrible Nightmare

That's It

A Cup of Coffee

Is Having More Options a Better Option?

Friends for a month

Army 'daze'

A New Chapter

最近...怪怪的。

Sicko?

A Wrong Choice?

A Beginning or an End?

Make or Break

The Split-road of Life

Will it be a GOOD Fiday?

Monday Blues

Wurk Wurk!

人生的定义？

A Complete CNY

Why does it have to come back?

Xmas's coming!

It was like a dream =)

Saying Farewell...

Goodbye SG...for now...

4 more to go!

Oh no...

The game begins...

Saturation...

I wanna Chill Out =x

So WARM!

Troubled...

...

Hmm...is it stress?

200th post XD

Motivation?

夢想只是個名詞，你要想辦法把它變成動詞。

Forgetfulness...

Feeling down...

Never expected...

Still playing!

Class outing @ sentosa + National Day Celebration!

My Future...

Boring life

Shag

Zzz

Oh no...

Transcendance!

1 more week to Dance Night'10!

Still...tired

Really exhausted...

Sad...

Sick! for the 'n'th time...

Let's stop mugging...for now

March Hols~

1 more week to BLOCK TEST!

新年新希望

10S69

Ad Infinitum?

Depressed

School's starting!

It's a NEW year!

Dance Camp!

Christmas Eve!

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